Doorie....Sahi jaaye na...!

Baby, we had a great fight....I know I have been dragging things..! But, I really felt bad when you said your demands. I felt shattered as if you have been putting conditions to love me..! Never mind, since now it is all over.. I have no complains, no demands. You just be happy and may you get a very rich guy who will give you all the luxuries in life, if not love.. Because thats what matters the most to a person! Love is always secondary.. I have already gone out of your life.. But life has stopped moving for me.. I cannot move on! I will be here, waiting for the day if by chance you realize how much I love you and you return to me unconditionally!! I pray to God..

This is all I want to say!! Maybe you wont even bother to read the post.. Maybe you will never get to read this.. No problem!

Take care..

Bye..

PS: I still Love you & I can cause no harm to you.

Name says it all..

Baby as your name = my business.. This Gold shall be the string that will bind us very soon. When I am sitting idle I always think of our good times. In the past I got carried away sometimes and doubted you badly. I regret that daily. I dont have any doubts on you anymore but yes you hardly respond sometimes so I get insecured. I dont like that feeling. Still I know you love me more than I do. So, I am relaxed. You dont express it but still I feel it. :* You are the most wonderful thing that has happened to me in my life. Just hard work + God's will can unite us. I am doing my part and just keeping fingers crossed because each day is like a hell for me. Saala guzarta hi nahi.. When I am with you kitna jaldi guzar jaata hain time.. First place I'll go back with you is "Saba" :) - Calm, silent and nice place. These memories are my motivation to work non-stop.. I crave to spend each moment of my life with you. And I'm sure this time God wont deprive me of it because this time I do mean it. In the past, he never waved his magic wand because he knew you are there for me.

Anyways, bohot bakwaas likh diya.. I write here because I need to speak out my inner feeling somewhere..

Take care.. And wait little more.. Wont be long enough now.. I'm coming for you very soon..

PS: I Love you..

Your UTK..

When everything seems meaningless..

There is no meaning in anything without you. I am shattered. Every second seems like an year to me now. Just in search of the end of the tunnel to see the light. I have lost your smile. I am the culprit. I am doing whatever it takes to preserve you in my life. I cannot give up. I have nothing right now, with me except those memories that helps me to keep going on. I have become too feeble and lost all my pride and anger. I need to setup an empire - for whom? I dont need it. I want to set it up for you. So I can buy whatever you look at. Everything deserves to be at your feet and I cannot deprive you of this right. Baby believe it or not, I love you truly from the bottom of my heart. My every heartbeat is for you and your smile is only for me..Your eyes should only look at me..Your lips should only utter my name!

Maybe as you said once, you can get 1000s of better guys than me. I'm sure you will. But I'm sure no one will love you more than me. Maybe I am short tempered and impatient. But...I would say if you can disregard that and look at my love..

You are right - every relationship is a disaster without a stability. But always remember the basic support is love then comes materials. With money and without love no rp can be successful and one day or the day life would be a hell. I promise you - i'll give you both..

Bye..Love you!

Serendipity !

I have been trying my best to forget you. But I have been getting signs - "DO NOT FORGET". I dont know what God wants from me. He wants to give me what I truly wants or He wants to beat the crap out of me. I dont know. I only know the more I try to pull myself away from you, the more I am pushing myself into you. I know nothing is impossible. Forgetting someone isnt impossible either. In my case as well, its not impossible. Very easy to forget if you if I forget to breathe for 10 minutes.

I never knew I could be this weak. But I am. I am getting all the signs that lead me to you. What does this mean?? The songs I dedicated to you, keeps on coming now - be it on FM or on TV. WTF is that?? I am going crazy!! The places we went together keeps on coming when I go anywhere. I cannot live like this. People say run away.. I say run away from what? From who? I can run away from your physical existence but I cannot run away from the memories, those moments. You say delete everything. From HDD I can delete, but help me deleting from my memories!!!!!!

I dont know whats in store for me..I am drowning into your thoughts which seems deeper than ThePacific!

When nothing goes RIGHT !

It is said when everything has to go wrong it shall go wrong! You cannot help it. And thats whats happening with me. Work life sucks. Striving to succeed. Love life sucks! Now enough is enough.. When no one supports. These are time when you get to know who will sustain during the tough times. And right now, no one to support me. "Sab matlabi hain" !!

Life is too short to waste! Earn like hell, enjoy twice of what you earned.. Thats life! And DONT give a damn to ANYONE! People come and go.. DONT care! If you care a lot, people screw you. No one understands true feeling. People laugh if you cry.. People party in 10 days after you die! So all these emotional show - off is just a bluff.. What is real then?? MONEY, FAME, and LUXURY are REAL. People leave you. BUT you can hold back money. Enjoy yourself for you need no one! You have the big bucks, you buy people!! THATS IT..

Be ruthless.. Life will be a roller coaster ride.. NO room for emotion mate..

Work hard, party harder!

When you have to Succeed !

It is said behind every successful man is a woman. I agree. Without a woman you cannot succeed. She is your inspiration to succeed. I have my love that has put me into the path to success. But, my fate was to leave my love for this success. NO success, NO love! That's practical theory, believe it or not. I do believe it. She is my sole reason for existence and I can go to any limits to be with her. But, now.. It seems I am losing all hopes of getting her and like a failure I am accepting this defeat and trying to retreat back - forgetting whatever she did for me, how much she loved me, to what extent she went to love me. I have been selfish to the core and I want to leave her so my pain and stress can come down!

I dont have anything right now.. Except my struggle to succeed.. I dont want to give her these worries everyday and so I wanted to finish it once and for all.. I know it is not going to be easy either for me or her. But this is Life and it teaches you how to live! So I guess we will learn to live without each other but I wont learn to love again.. I loved her gave her my heart and there is no one who can touch that space. She has full command on it ! The day I become a successful businessman, I shall visit her beautiful family and ask - "Tum khush toh ho na?"

Be it today or after couple of year, the only thing that matters to me, is her happiness. Even if my absence can make her happy I am happy! This is not something I am saying because it sounds good. But this is what I feel and I know I can do at times when needed!

I have always been a guy.. Who has a laid back attitude towards life, never serious.. People call me a spoilt brat.. But she changed me completely! "Tujhko jo paaya...Toh jeena aaya!" Today whatever I am and whatever I will be, all because of her. All credit for success goes to her and all blame for failure shall go to me!

I still remember my first mail to you expressing my feelings for you....."I dont know, I wanna follow you tonight.. When the rest of the world with whom I have crossed and have quarreled.." Please wait for me jaan, if you can! I will be right here waiting for you! And I will surely go to get you from this world..

Your Barney! :*