When you have to Succeed !

It is said behind every successful man is a woman. I agree. Without a woman you cannot succeed. She is your inspiration to succeed. I have my love that has put me into the path to success. But, my fate was to leave my love for this success. NO success, NO love! That's practical theory, believe it or not. I do believe it. She is my sole reason for existence and I can go to any limits to be with her. But, now.. It seems I am losing all hopes of getting her and like a failure I am accepting this defeat and trying to retreat back - forgetting whatever she did for me, how much she loved me, to what extent she went to love me. I have been selfish to the core and I want to leave her so my pain and stress can come down!

I dont have anything right now.. Except my struggle to succeed.. I dont want to give her these worries everyday and so I wanted to finish it once and for all.. I know it is not going to be easy either for me or her. But this is Life and it teaches you how to live! So I guess we will learn to live without each other but I wont learn to love again.. I loved her gave her my heart and there is no one who can touch that space. She has full command on it ! The day I become a successful businessman, I shall visit her beautiful family and ask - "Tum khush toh ho na?"

Be it today or after couple of year, the only thing that matters to me, is her happiness. Even if my absence can make her happy I am happy! This is not something I am saying because it sounds good. But this is what I feel and I know I can do at times when needed!

I have always been a guy.. Who has a laid back attitude towards life, never serious.. People call me a spoilt brat.. But she changed me completely! "Tujhko jo paaya...Toh jeena aaya!" Today whatever I am and whatever I will be, all because of her. All credit for success goes to her and all blame for failure shall go to me!

I still remember my first mail to you expressing my feelings for you....."I dont know, I wanna follow you tonight.. When the rest of the world with whom I have crossed and have quarreled.." Please wait for me jaan, if you can! I will be right here waiting for you! And I will surely go to get you from this world..

Your Barney! :*