Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks..I will be right here waiting for you

I have tried a lot to forget you, to hate you. Everything seems to fail. I love you and you have made a place in each drop of my blood. I wish you had loved the way you lied. At least loved me the way you loved you ex. I could ne'er take that place it seems. With me you went out on a vacation, did so much. But still after break up, never looked back. But it wasn't the case with your ex. He was lucky enough or maybe I'm not worthy of your love in your eyes. Well, let me tell you whatever I do, I do it for you. I wish I could convey what's in me, I wish I could speak myself up. I wish I could see you again, I wish I could sense you so close once again. I feel so secured in your arms. I feel so natural when you wrap me around. Everythingz gone. Nothingz left.. The only hope that's left is one day I will be relieved of this pain.. One day I will die - which is known and inevitable.