PS: I LOVE YOU

Guess this is my last post now !

Last 3 words to you that has my life in them : I LOVE YOU ! !

Tere Bin na dekhu main subah..

I have been lying to myself for the last few months that you are worth nothing to me, I can get far better gals than you, I never loved you etc etc.. But the truth is, I was lying to myself and that was my biggest fault. I have realized, I need no one else in my life but you. You are not my zidd, but you are my soul! I want to live every moment of my life with you so that this life moves on smooth and nice. I want to be the reason for your smile, I want to see that glitters in your eyes that I used to see everytime we met. I am running away from all the places we visited but I am unable to run away from your thoughts and our memories. I am sure everyone has played their role, divided us and is happy. They have ruined our lives and I can never forgive anyone for this.. You fought with me because you were under pressure.. You are too innocent to fight on those reasons but you got carried away! I said rough things, but I know what I went through after saying all those things to you!! And, I mean it.. I wish I get some supernatural powers so I can always look after you and save you from anything bad.. My sole reason to exist will be your happiness, if not with me then atleast without me!! I know you still love me.. But, the situation has gone out of our hands and we have ourselves, let it go. We became the victim to our circumstances!

Anyways, I do hope you are forever happy! At least someone should be happy.. I dont know how much you loved me. But I loved you from the bottom of my heart and I have considered as my everything.. No one can replace you ever!! And I wont let anyone replace you EVER!

PS: I love you until Death!

Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks..I will be right here waiting for you

I have tried a lot to forget you, to hate you. Everything seems to fail. I love you and you have made a place in each drop of my blood. I wish you had loved the way you lied. At least loved me the way you loved you ex. I could ne'er take that place it seems. With me you went out on a vacation, did so much. But still after break up, never looked back. But it wasn't the case with your ex. He was lucky enough or maybe I'm not worthy of your love in your eyes. Well, let me tell you whatever I do, I do it for you. I wish I could convey what's in me, I wish I could speak myself up. I wish I could see you again, I wish I could sense you so close once again. I feel so secured in your arms. I feel so natural when you wrap me around. Everythingz gone. Nothingz left.. The only hope that's left is one day I will be relieved of this pain.. One day I will die - which is known and inevitable.

Tera Muskurana..Mere liye hain bass mere liye hain!

Hey jaan..Jitni bhi door chali jaao, I will come back for you..To take you..To win you back! I need you every moment of my life..I m so much disheartened you never tried once to reach me..I thought you cannot live a moment without me..So much hatred for me..We haven't spoken for a month now, but I think for you every second..I am unable to live without you..! Why don't you understand me!!!! I need you really bad.. I guess I am also under the control of my ego.. I don't understand what do I do..If I contact you back, things will go worse..I have got to know you have moved on and you are happy without me..I dont wanna change that or take back that happiness too..

I wish you could understand my feelings straight..And come back to me..! I will always be there, where you left me..

PS: I will love you till the last breathe coz I am crazy for you..

Yours Utk..

Doorie....Sahi jaaye na...!

Baby, we had a great fight....I know I have been dragging things..! But, I really felt bad when you said your demands. I felt shattered as if you have been putting conditions to love me..! Never mind, since now it is all over.. I have no complains, no demands. You just be happy and may you get a very rich guy who will give you all the luxuries in life, if not love.. Because thats what matters the most to a person! Love is always secondary.. I have already gone out of your life.. But life has stopped moving for me.. I cannot move on! I will be here, waiting for the day if by chance you realize how much I love you and you return to me unconditionally!! I pray to God..

This is all I want to say!! Maybe you wont even bother to read the post.. Maybe you will never get to read this.. No problem!

Take care..

Bye..

PS: I still Love you & I can cause no harm to you.

Name says it all..

Baby as your name = my business.. This Gold shall be the string that will bind us very soon. When I am sitting idle I always think of our good times. In the past I got carried away sometimes and doubted you badly. I regret that daily. I dont have any doubts on you anymore but yes you hardly respond sometimes so I get insecured. I dont like that feeling. Still I know you love me more than I do. So, I am relaxed. You dont express it but still I feel it. :* You are the most wonderful thing that has happened to me in my life. Just hard work + God's will can unite us. I am doing my part and just keeping fingers crossed because each day is like a hell for me. Saala guzarta hi nahi.. When I am with you kitna jaldi guzar jaata hain time.. First place I'll go back with you is "Saba" :) - Calm, silent and nice place. These memories are my motivation to work non-stop.. I crave to spend each moment of my life with you. And I'm sure this time God wont deprive me of it because this time I do mean it. In the past, he never waved his magic wand because he knew you are there for me.

Anyways, bohot bakwaas likh diya.. I write here because I need to speak out my inner feeling somewhere..

Take care.. And wait little more.. Wont be long enough now.. I'm coming for you very soon..

PS: I Love you..

Your UTK..

When everything seems meaningless..

There is no meaning in anything without you. I am shattered. Every second seems like an year to me now. Just in search of the end of the tunnel to see the light. I have lost your smile. I am the culprit. I am doing whatever it takes to preserve you in my life. I cannot give up. I have nothing right now, with me except those memories that helps me to keep going on. I have become too feeble and lost all my pride and anger. I need to setup an empire - for whom? I dont need it. I want to set it up for you. So I can buy whatever you look at. Everything deserves to be at your feet and I cannot deprive you of this right. Baby believe it or not, I love you truly from the bottom of my heart. My every heartbeat is for you and your smile is only for me..Your eyes should only look at me..Your lips should only utter my name!

Maybe as you said once, you can get 1000s of better guys than me. I'm sure you will. But I'm sure no one will love you more than me. Maybe I am short tempered and impatient. But...I would say if you can disregard that and look at my love..

You are right - every relationship is a disaster without a stability. But always remember the basic support is love then comes materials. With money and without love no rp can be successful and one day or the day life would be a hell. I promise you - i'll give you both..

Bye..Love you!